thank you both
and thank god over and over for barney

i wonder if he turned into that purple blob of a dinosaur cos he smoked way too much

i made it the day without it
and the urge has diminished

but i would still like to be someplace else

and whats funny - not really but isnt that what we all just say- that i know and see the outcomes of smoking marijuana and it doesnt put me off.. sometimes i think yes bring it on make that happen to me fk me up more so my life can be worse and i wont be able to work and i'll live in gov housing and get social security payments