Well, I did find out that I am still getting medicaid, there was just some miscommunication or misunderstanding on my part or something. That program that I was talking (with the shampoo and toilet paper) had a little more to it than I thought and it looks like I can get quite a bit of help from it, like with help with transportation (such as gas and bus passes, etc) and help with rent, utilities, etc. I was thinking that I could take the city shuttle right to the place I need to go and it will charge me only $3.oo for a round trip so that can work. Last nite, I just felt like I was at my wits end. I had a 7:30 a.m. appointment with my psychiatrist this morning; my son drove me in and its about a 45 minute drive; I wanted to make sure we werent late so we left around 6ish. I was in a lot of pain and did not get much sleep last nite. The appointment only lasted 10 minutes!But between yesterdays stress and this mornings early appointment, it just totally wiped me out and I could not get anything done 2day.