Hi Bronee, I too used drugs and alcohol to escape. Somedays I think yeah, it would be nice to just zone out for a bit, but I know that means there are things I need to deal with and those things will still be here when I sober up. Only sometimes they are worse because they have built up because I ignored them. Maybe you could do some journaling about why you want to escape...I know it is not as much "fun" as getting high, but it might have a more positive outcome.

I am glad I no longer use drugs or alcohol to deal with my life. Sometimes its tough, but overall I consider my sobriety to be the best thing that ever happened to me. Good luck.