Every day is challenging and I have had so many downs not to say other people haven't had it worse than me. I know that my life even with all its problems there have and are people worse off.

I work hard to try and find the person I use to be, who use to always smile and laugh. Just a weird example: Many years ago I was helping my parents take care of a cat and it bit my finger almost to the bone on a Sunday. Well I went to work the next day finger all wrapped up and more than twice the size. The moment my boss came in, I went to her laughing and before I could say anything she asked why my finger was wrapped. As I hold my wrapped finger in the air, laughing I said to her "Can I leave early to go to the doctors as i might have rabies" She did let me leave early and then I came back and no I didn't have rabies.

I have always tried to find humor (which is strength) in my health problems but over the years it has been more difficult finding that humor. Not always do people understand or get the sense of humor and they tend to find me odd. I fall a lot, cry a lot but still try and find just some strength in me to keep moving forward. I try and read inspirational quote as help as well.