Hello again!
So there is another week of body therapy behind me. I had 3 hour group bioenergetic exercise on Sunday with my T which went well. We did mainly Kum Nye which is Tibetan Yoga (more information here:
New to Kum Nye? Ŧ Kum Nye Tibetan Yoga). So that was relaxing mainly.
Then on Monday I went for individual session and we talked about "THE" hardest stuff like CSA and what I remember (chaos). I found out from my mum that I have medical records from paediatric gynaecologist that she used to take me to since I was 1 year old as I had chronic "issues". These records are with my GP and I have to make a decision if I want to see them or not. They are the possible proof of what happened ( or did not happen) as my memory is not great. But I am not sure I am ready..... so yeah hard week I have to say.
My T said we will do individual body work again next week as I was too overwhelmed already with the "news".
On Tuesdays I had the group exercise again for hour and half and something weird happened we did an exercise which is called "flying" and it is very slow and you lift your hands up very slowly in a motion like a bird and then slowly put your hands back down again. It can take like 10 minutes or more as they should move just a little with your breathing. It was very quiet nobody talked and there was just the hand motion. And then it just came all of a sudden and I felt tears going down my face. I was facing the window so nobody saw me so I just let them (BIG improvement).
I should point out I really donīt cry much (never in therapy and usually never in public or when people can see me, maybe once or twice a year if I am alone) soo yeah. I dunno what it was even about but it just happened and I let it ... which I am little proud of
I will write more in next few days about the purpose and ideas of these exercises and how it is suppose to work specifically.
Be well guys and good luck on your journeys
