Thanks, tigergirl. Good questions! I have to try.

Thanks, stopdog. Yes, I've read about limerence. It sounds like infatuation, like HazelGirl suggests. They both are relevant to me.

My H won't go to counseling. We tried it with my T for a few sessions a couple of years ago.

I'm not sure now what I'm missing, the love, sex, or intimacy--probably a combination. If I had some of it, I wouldn't need the high. I hope I wouldn't.

bp, that is VERY insightful! This is embarrassing but today I felt it again probably because the session was intense and I talked about sex.

Thanks. I'm not sure, though. Not exactly.

Wise words. Thank you. T told me today that I do have someone to be in love with--my H. I wish that could happen.
I say "pathetic" because I've been "in love" with Ts for years. It's got to stop!

Profound, Mouse! Thanks.

Yes, being IN love is different, at least to me.


It was intense! I talked about sex and got embarrassed/ashamed. My face was red. Yuck! Of course T didn't let me talk about feelings for her but about how my H and I can have a better relationship. She gave me some suggestions.

She said I don't have to ask every session if she will still hold my hand. She said she won't ever take it away again. My stomach hurt and she asked me to put my hand where it hurt. I'm too much in my head, she tells me. It's hard. She asks what I feel but doesn't want thoughts, just sensations in my body.

I felt a lot of shame, which is easy to identify by my blushing. SE is difficult. I had to tell her about my face feeling hot.

I'm glad I talked about this today in spite of my shame about it.