Hello AR.
Welcome to Psych Central. I am sorry that you are having a hard time getting the help you need at this time. If you have no other option at least go to a general practitioner and get the meds you need at this time, hide them and take them if you must. You deserve to feel better. Also if you are lower to moderate income and in the United States then there is county mental health services that are low priced or free. There are Also Free Med Programs as well for Free medication. If I were you I would make an appointment and go yourself to get the help you need, and make arrangements with the therapist not to call you because you are in a situation at home where your husband must not know you are getting therapy. The therapist can help when they know your situation. Take care and good day Soidhonia