i'm not at school. i live alone but i came back to my parents home after i was hospitalised a couple of days ago. since then i don't know whether i want to go home to an empty house or stay with my mother victimising. i was so hurt - i don't hate her obviously. its just at the time i was so enraged i just wrote it all down straight away to get it out. now i've calmed down that is until she comes back to have another go at me.