> Right now it is scary because of the extreme feelings I am having towards him. I almost feel like I hate him. But at the same time I know I feel like this because I am so %#@&#! attached to him. When I get angry with someone, they turn "bad" to me. Now I feel like if something were to happen this week, I cannot call him. It's a lonely feeling. I say how much I want things on my terms. Please. I'm completely at the mercy of the emotions and decisions of those who I have formed attachments to.
This is exactly why I want to be alone.
I hate being alone.

> There isn't much insight on my part, in this post.

Oh yes there is.

Longing for intimacy yet terror of it. Sounds to me like you have pretty amazing insight into what is going on.

I am so glad your therapist is able to take your rage.

:-)

And... I'm sure he will be able to take your attachment too.

:-)