i have canceled ... probably more than too many appointments with my therapist, i do really like her but i have this problem about leaving the house, going to public place and meeting someone i haven't known for very long to talk about sensitive topics

i usually go having no idea what to say to her or what to talk about, i just try to go with the flow and play it by ear because i dont want to be there and am so nervous/uncomfortable being out in public in a clinic

is it possible that my therapist understands my position and isn't mad at me about canceling my appointments?

i would love to utilize therapy but its just so alien to me why do i have to be so social phobic?