The past few days have been scaring me no end. He behaves so irrationally that I feel so scared. I am scared as to what he might do to me but I've no one to seek help from. My parents in their own worlds are looking for a groom for me. I really wish to find a way out of all this without ruining my life altogether. On one hand, they seek family honour etc. On other hand he is beating me up mentally day by day. I really do wish to find a way out of all this. I am scared I'll permanently ruin my whole life by taking the worst decisions of my life There is no way to find a therapist here as I live with my folks and I really couldn't explain anything to them which is why I am pouring my heart out here. Spent about an hour crying in the shower today and yet no one notices my puffy eyes behind my smiling façade