Don't push yourself so hard ...nor so fast! You are in the early stages of therapy... and really doing well. Already close to talking and telling the T about the emotions he evokes? That's great work! Trust me, he can handle them. I believe that all good therapists have a plan, but they don't necessarily share them with the patient... with many situations a good T knows the answer we need, but we aren't ready to see it, even if written out and given to us.

TC!