Hello indigo1015. Thanks very much for sharing your issues with us, we do understand hunny. No, in my own case and a number of other people I know, it's not at all unusual to be anorexic yet loose control and binge from time to time. Thin will indeed still allow you to stay at the same weight, even though you feel ''huge''. I've suffered every ED known for the last 33 years and I still do, even though I've caused my body a great deal of harm. For example I was unable to have kids because of all the starving and severe restricting, I also have oestoprosis (brittle bone disease), oh and my teeth are in bad condition due to several battles with bulimia. I've also been hospitalised many times due to anorexia, then binge/starve for extended spells. However I am now in therapy and although I'm ''old'' I'm giving it a good go, early days yet as I still have body dysmorphia (severe body image issues). Yes, my weight is just about at a ''healthy'' weight for my height, still lowish but I just cannot handle weighing any more. BUT, in the past I've weighed TWICE the weight I am now ............................... it was an absolute NIGHTMARE!!. Anyways hun, try and get help and stay with it because ED's ruin lives. HUGS. XXXXXXXXXX