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Jun 18, 2014, 05:36 PM
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Grand Poohbah
Community Liaison
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Member Since: Jan 2011
Location: Surrey, SE London, UK
Posts: 1,628
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Oh my dear friend Indigo1015. I'm so sorry to see that you're feeling rock bottom, yes I sure can feel your vibes that you're in a real bad place. I UNDERSTAND your serious issues regarding the eating disorder. I to am severely restricting at the moment, well I have been for many months. I'm trying to loose the extra ugly rolls of flesh that I acquired when I started taking Seroquel. It wasn't just the Seroquel that made me gain weight, I was pigging out sometimes too when I was depressed. I've been anorexic/bulimic and hospitalised a number of times. I'm totally obsessed, I mean TOTALLY. I've not eaten a Christmas dinner with my family for 33 years! They are so used to my ''funny ways'' that they know not to say anything, sad isn't it? I spend ages checking myself in every available mirror. I constantly compare myself to other women in supermarkets etc heck I even look in their baskets to see what they are buying, check out whether they are fat or thin............................it goes on and on without relief. I'm not depressed at the moment but boy is my OCD thinking bad or what when I'm depressed. Oh don't get me started on the subject of Dr's!!!!!!!!!!!! I've had a terrible fight with my stupid Psych Dr. I'll come back to you and tell you all about that one, it's as bit long to write now as I've gotta go check my messages elsewhere. Anyways darling, chin up, hard as it is I know. I'll be here if you want to talk or vent/rant!! Take care, HUGS and LOVES, as ever. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX 
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