Hello, isntlifewonderful. "I'm at an institution ..." Does that mean you have been institutionalized? If so, did you voluntarily enter the institution to receive treatment?

Whether you are in an institution or not, it is apparent what is going on is not working. My suggestion is to print your post for those who are now treating you. If you are not being treated, to seek professional help and use the post to explain the issues you are enduring.

Good luck.