What makes a 36 y/o male cry at the drop of a hat? Desperate emotions. I've been crying almost everyday and running out of Seroquel to get me out of the mess.
When I cry my Dad gets horribly upset and says horrible and mean things to me. Yesterday I hit my head over and over again in front of my parents. I am so desperate. My pdoc is in Mexico and until I get back there, she can't really help me.
I'm supposed to start a job on Monday in CA and while I was thinking there was no way I could do it, I now want to go. I think it will be good for me to get out of my parents' house. I think I overstayed my visit. I just have to be sure I'm going to do the job, otherwise I'll fail and feel more miserable.
I wish I was a stronger person so much. It's painful to have these emotions that take me over and make me cry so loud and forcefully. I can't hold the tears in that's all, I wish my parents understood that.
Thanks for reading guys.