please try to hang in there and get healthy. he may have your children for now, but you WILL be strong, healthy, and motivated. There is a wonderful, loving mother inside of you. You can't let the illness win! Don't listen to the negative voices. Find someone you trust to help you through this. We will help you, we will think good thoughts for you. We will hug you, wherever you are, when you need support. You can survive!!!