I have almost no reason to believe this is actually going on, but...

My T has several children, and they're about my age. One is slightly older (only know that because she just got married) and one is slightly younger (just graduated high school), and I think there might be a third in between those two.

And I wonder sometimes if my T sees me in a similar way as her children. Not the exact same of course, but sort of motherly. Like she cares about me in a similar way that she cares about her kids.

I know, I know...transference...talk about it...blah, blah, blah...

But I don't find it bothers me. I'm not obsessed about it or anything (maybe because I do talk about it occasionally?), and I rather enjoy it.

But is it weird to wonder and hope that she sees me like that? Because I think it might be.

The only thing that has ever made me wonder if she actually does was something she said a few weeks ago. I was talking about how some people see me as a good kid, and make comments like they wish their children were like me and stuff like that. And I talked about how it bothered me because I'm not perfect or even all that great. But those people only see the good side of me. They don't see the struggles. And while trying to convince me it's supposed to be a compliment even if I don't like it, she said she tries to avoid saying that type of thing to me. And it made me wonder if she does actually care about me like one of her kids.

I know it's stupid to think that might actually be possible, but I find that it's sort of comforting that she might think that positively of me.