it's a way of coping, suzifleshinator! (interesting screen name btw). it isn't the best way to cope because it hurts you, and you don't deserve to be hurt. but we on this forum do totally understand where you're coming from, believe me.

good luck in finding other more healthy (and non-hurtful) ways of coping!

Angela (SC)

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-