New user, late to the party, or just in time. I dont know if this comes off as a rant, these are some of the thoughts that have come to dominate my mind, I dont know if the trauma and the weird feeling of everything moving very fast is connected [pre-edit]

Today I experienced the speeding up of reality in my bed, I wont go into the experience as you cover it pretty good, it feels like playing Quake3 with a very narrow Field of View.
I had just come in from a cigarette and lay down in my bed
the day leading up to the increased point-of-view episode has been me going through my child hood (once again).
I was sexually abused as a child (by a marginally older child) and when I tried to to talk to my mother, she made it clear that she was not a person who could be talked to, this accompanied by her passive agressiveness, constant negative attitude, father not here. I think most of my psychosis and nerosis come from the very sharp policeman attitude of my mother, like growing up with a psychotic, ready to flex her anger at you for any slight, question out of bound or really any kind of reaching out when I think about it. Growing up there was only my mother, and she taught her child that she cannot communicate. Now a teary eyed man sits in front of his computer and writes.
I realize I have pressed down the trauma of sexual abuse since I was young.
As a kid I reasoned for myself that If I told no one, no one would know, and no thing had happened.
These episodes of entering the sped-up mindset happened many times in my childhood going through my teen years and now most recently today. As It happened I had just come through a day of being tearfilled with the emotions of my past, and earlier in the day getting a mouthful from my mother again.