I guess this is sort of related to the subject... I was using the techniques people suggested for reading. It was working pretty well actually. Also using timers to try to keep me on track doing one thing at a time.

But yeah. I was reading one of my Ethics textbooks and something kinda weird happened. They mentioned One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest and the lobotomy scene and I just kinda freaked out? I'm not entirely sure what happened. It felt like my bedroom was melting into my room in the first psych ward I was at and I could hear stuff that was said there and see some people. Then it stopped and it was like I was sitting staring at my book but I couldn't move at all, not even blinking, for what felt like forever and I couldn't really form whole thoughts. I checked the clock and apparently 20 minutes had gone by. My sister's back in our room and I don't remember her coming in.

It's like I can't feel emotion right now but at the same time I have the sensation of holding back tears? What's going on? This has been happening more and more frequently over the last few months and it keeps getting worse and more confusing.