One of the biggest issues im struggling with with my T is this...

Since T put me in hospital last year, I do not tell her about my deep thoughts of suicide, taking pills, cutting or anything. Simply for the fact I feel I need to protect myself from her. I do not feel them near as often as I did, but when I do I tell no body, esp. T.

I told T this, and her response was, "GOOD!"

I strongly think a client needs to feel safe in telling their T about their deep feelings that frighten them and make them afraid of their own safety from thyself. But My T does not see it this way, or has not told me so. I told her it feels like manipulation. Why would you beat a child who asks for food because he is hungry? When that child learns to not ask for food, but instead die from starvation from not voicing himself.

This makes me devastated.