Hey RB! Just saw this. You know, it does sound like a lot of things to change up all at once -- they're all worthy, but maybe all at once might be sending some kind of "overwhelm" signal to your subconscious(??) Totally a guess, but I find that when I just don't know what to do, and am irritable, frustrated and exhausted, it usually turns out I'm overwhelmed. Not saying that's all that's going on or anything, just that it's something that may well be.

On the meds, no worries, there's nothing weak about it. But you know this. It's good you have the meds coming. Pick them up, then you'll have them. Doesn't mean you need to take them. Not saying you shouldn't, just saying better to have them on hand undecided than to realize you need them and not have them, you know? With one of my meds, I have a big feeling of reassurance, just knowing it's there, whether I'm currently needing it or not.

Good luck! And keep posting, ok? (I'll try to check in a bit more often, but currently, BF is (im)patiently waiting for me to help him with something, so gotta run!