Would couples counselling be an option Rainbow? We all need to feel loved and it is hard to go through life when we feel this 'hole' inside our hearts and our lives. It is also hard to acknowledge that Ts can't really fill this need/hole.

I think it would make a world of difference for you to have a partner in the truest sense of the term and someone who could love & cherish you in your day to day life. If hubby would be able to fill this role, maybe something to consider?