I never wanted a boyfriend, but then I became an adult, the majority of people tell me that I need a boyfriend to be happy and then have children. but I also do not want to have children. although I have never changed my mind, I'm afraid of what they say is true, I'll suffer without a boyfriend and no children. I think my avoidant personality disorder is why I think that way, wanting to be single for life. but I do not want anyone to touch my body, I find it absurd. and if he betrays me, hurt me, mess up my plans of life and my way of life, or to kill me? I also do not want to devote myself to take care of a child and the problems of a boyfriend because I prefer to devote my time to myself or family and friends, they are not intrusive on my privacy or my plans in life. live without APD implies want to have a boyfriend?