Hi ClemFan I am sorry to hear about your struggles. I agree, healthcare is outrageously priced and it should be criminal how much companies charge for services and medication. I feel I can relate to the turning 40 thing. I turned 40 in November and am feeling that I am not at all where I thought I would be. I suppose that is life and something we all struggle with but it is easier to deal with some days than others. I especially would like a family and am nowhere near that happening.

I also hate mornings too. One thing that helps me get through a rough time is movement. Walking, getting outside, doing yoga. It seems to shift my energy and mood at least for the short term. I'm sure you have tried this but just wanted to mention it to you. Hang in there.