Thanks guys for your reply!

Well I am still just taking Lamictal but will see my pdoc in less than two weeks. Well I just heard Abilify helps with the flatness Lamictal gives you. Cus Lamictal made me feel notrhing, no emotions, and Abilify helps getting that back, feelings and not feeling so numb. But I am still scared since I took SSRIs that vould make me manic I am afraid also of this Abilify.

Lamictal is helping a lot, I sdtill have mood swings but are not so severe. I am still not "me" and today I had to take my 1st benzo cus I was so nervous and felt anxiety at work. Those days of the month are coming and PMS is killing me I guess.

I am hoping for the best, I really want my life, emotions, motivation and the feeling of joy back again. WIll that ever be possible? I am quite succesfull but not feeling anything.

Like I get a job and I'm just like, oh, o.k., so what. And yeah losing feelings towards my BF and family is really horrible. Please, please, I just want my life back. And I'd do anything...