Dear Mapleburn15,

I think when you love someone, there will always be a part of you that becomes intertwined with who you are today. On the other hand you said he was abusive, thats not love.

Love is kind, love is respecting/accepting, and a loving relationship is hard work.

What he did was wrong and nothing will ever make it right, however what you are doing
obsessing over him is not healthy for you.

Before bed use thinking/thought that distract you from him.
Think about your future man.
Before entering a new relationship, do some self healing least you fall for the same man with a different face!

In your dream you keep missing him by moments because he is not for you and your heart and mind knows this already. Albeit painful grieve for the relationship. Forgive yourself for allowing someone to mistreat you. Take all the lessons learned and allow yourself to be free.

Happiedasiy