Dix I am hoping for the best. I am better but not ok, I'll probably try with 150mg of Lamictal and Abilify cus I am feeling emotionaly flat and with no life energy and irritable quite often. Today also anxious (probably cus of PMS) and had to take my 1st benzo so I am sad cus of that too, I so long for the day when I'll be totally ok....

I can just hope to get my life, my emotions, my optimism, my joy in life which I always had, back...is this too much to ask?