Thanks guys for your reply, I feel guilty cus they help me a lot, all the time, yet I feel nothing. I don't think it's depression but a side effect of Lamictal. I read it makes you feel emotionally numb....so that's why they put you on Abilify to get your emotions (in a normal range) back and the joy of life(which I always had) back to you.

I hope...and pray for the day I'll live my life normal, without worrying when will I get anxious o when will I burst into tears. I am afraid of everything. Nor I have the desire to plan my summer holidays, and I am scared since panic and anxiety gets me in the middle of the day with no reason at all.