Life sucks right now big time. I have had a very bad week or so now and can't mentally take anymore! I have been trying so hard to control my rages and finally lost it. My husbands grandmother is dying, they don't know how she is still here. I have been the support person for my husband and his mother, as well as for my kids. I don't want to deal with it, I love her and I am gonna miss her but how many times do I need to bring my mother in law up there to say goodbye???? I think 4 times in the past few days is enough. So I flipped out on my husband today while he was at work, screamed at him, ranting and raving and then shut off my cell phone. How bad of a person does that make me???? He and his mom needed me to be strong and instead I lose It. He tried all day to call me and see if I was ok and couldn't get me so he left work early to come home. He stopped and bought me flowers, which i love. I am so tired of dealing with these moods, maybe I ought to have my meds upped who knows. Does it ever get any better then this? I have only been on my meds for 3 mo. or so. I wish I could make this all go away.