Things have become so bad that I'm thinking of going to the hospital tomorrow to try to get an assessment and see if I can get into a day program. I'll have to hope my contract hospital is willing to transfer my care close to home. Also have to worry about how to make ends meet if I run out of sick time and hit disability. Also worries about having my job still. May just ruin my life more but tight now I can't stop the depression. I'm even depressed that I don't get much response here. Just feel like I'm going to lose everything.