My T has listened without freaking out and as a result has helped me identify that I feel sui in response to any overwhelming emotion - if i connect to my sadness or anger I freak out and feel sui.

I have attempted in the past. My T told me once that he does sometimes worry that I'm serious when I say I feel like that. It means a lot to me that he is willing to sit with that worry. Everyone else always told me I had no reason to feel like that or otherwise invalidated me.