((Mowtown))),

I totally understand what you are saying/feeling because I have felt that way myself. I took some time out from therapy myself, just a couple of weeks. I did feel like I was living around therapy at times.

However, I am seeing you have some challenges that put you "back" some and I feel you need to have a therapist you can talk through these "setbacks" with too. I don't think it is the therapy that tires you out, it is just facing these setbacks and how exhausting they can be that is tiring. 'ME TOO".

I totally understand what you mean by how disturbed you are with your records too. I have been discussing that with my therapist too. I met with him on Tuesday and I was in bad shape tbh. I sat down and started to talk about all the triggers I had just in the past week and I had so much ground to cover and I was literally darting around trying to get it all in. He stopped me and said, "Do you see what you are doing?" and I thought about it because I have been this way a lot, as I really do have a lot to discuss. Well, Mowtown, he said that what I was doing is the "PTSD and how a patient in trauma does exactly what I was doing" and he said that what I was doing has been "misdiagnosed" as bipolar instead of being diagnosed for what it really is "PTSD". I was so glad he stopped me and pointed that out because it did make me realize what he was saying and yes, he is right and I thought about you Mowtown and how "you" were misunderstood too.

My therapist has asked me if he could keep my records and I think he wants to address it with his colleges because he sees how much I have suffered that was not fair to me as a patient.

Well I was severely triggered on Monday by two different situations and when I reached out my husband's responses made me even worse. By the time I got to sit in front of my therapist I was in such bad condition and when I was trying to tell him so many things came forward all at once that he saw how much I was struggling and did stop me and took the time to point out what I had just explained to you.

Quite frankly, for the past two days I have been crying and totally "exhausted". Yes, I would like to be able to take a break from it too.

I do think you should talk about all this with your therapist though Mowtown. I know it is tiring, I hear you. If you feel you need a break, then maybe talk to your therapist about
possibly taking a couple of weeks off, but I don't recommend breaking away from therapy completely.

(((Hugs))))
OE