Thank you Sky. I always feel like I am failing at therapy. Glad to know I am on the right track.

Thanks Pinksoil. I don't really journal - every few weeks I do a recap of what has been going on in my life. But never really anything about my thoughts or feelings. Sometimes I think that I don't want to acknowledge my thoughts - actually I really do not want to at all. And for feelings - I have a really hard time with feelings - I hate them!! I didn't have them for a long long time and now they are starting to come in little waves. It is so so strange. I don't think they are right. Can you feel wrong?

Well - anyhow T emailed me back. He thanked me for sharing and said we would talk about it when I come in. Of course now I am wondering what he means by thanking me??? I am so insecure - I need to get a grip, a serious grip. Oh yeah and I want to cancel my appointment on Monday as we may actually talk about what I wrote. I don't know if I am ready for that. I think it is time to become very very real with T and that scares the heck out of me.