Went to a surprise party today. Had so much fun and for a while I managed to let my guard down for once. Then I had a nightmare on the bus ride home. My dad's fiance had me cornered. She was telling me that he no longer loved or needed me anymore and that I should crawl into a hole and die. Then in my nightmare, I shot her in the head but she didn't die. She got out a knife and stabbed me in the heart repeatedly. Then I woke up to the sound of someone speaking loudly in a foreign language on the bus. Every time she's in my nightmares she's always trying to hurt me. And to be honest I want to hurt her. I know she's got something against me. I know she's out to get me. But my dad can't see it.