When I was looking for a cure or to fix it all the time, I made myself miserable. I did stop one day doing everything, no more T's, treatments, etc., chucked it all. This went on for some time until I realized since I was just a miserable and there was no cure, but that I do have a choice in what i do to deal with it. The problem for me wasn't with the treatments, providers or in having none of them, it was my mindset in how I looked at things and wanting to get rid of it. I was unrealistic at this time.

I started looking for ways, instead of ways to fix it and to get rid of it, just to cope with it and to find strategies that worked to help ease it instead and let go of the the mindset that it was ever going to go away, which was hard to get my mind around at first to accept. So many things have cures, why not this? Accepting this wasn't one of those illnesses yet with a cure and changing my thinking got me out of a race with myself to get to the next big thing that would take everything away because that was not going to happen, only if they lobotomized me was that apparently going to happen and not so common these days to get.

For some reason turning this around for me knowing it would be a part of me, but that it could be coped with, changed things and knowing I do have a choice in how I deal with it and let it get to me. I began to handle things better and though still traumatic at times, it is better than it was.

I don't know if it helps to know that I found, that if it doesn't go away, I will actually be ok and can be for you too. Know that though it is still annoying and can bring me to my knees, that it does not level me anymore and I can pick myself much faster now. Do not give up, it doesn't have to level you. Know there are are choices in how you deal with it.

I don't know if this helps but no matter, I do hope you find the answers that you seek, the help that you want, ease of symptoms, and the courage to continue with finding the path that is right for you. Take good care of you meanwhile.