Forgot my meds last night. Not a major disaster like it has been with some drugs in the past, but I certainly felt rough this morning, but with a bit of activity and focus I got going eventually and have felt OK since. Remembered the meds tonight, double checked and triple checked. I don't want to mess this up.

One thing I've noticed is that although my mood is better, I've lost so much confidence, I can't believe the things I used to be able to do, like speak at conferences, why would anyone want to listen to me? I wonder if I will get that level of confidence back or am I getting too far ahead of myself? I'm not even sure I'm ready to go back to work yet.

To those of you who can't be hopeful of something better, I'm thinking of you, I remember that dark, lonely place and I want you to know I'm here.