What scares me hmmm? Quite a lot of things. I think that if I say it it will be real. I have lived in my own world for a very very long time and now for some reason I am becoming very enlightened. I cannot pretend that it isn't there and I still try but if I speak it write it or acknowledge it well then there is no going back. I also am very afraid that T won't like me and that he won't continue to see me. I desperately seek approval. It is a real issue for me. I never argue or even disagree for fear that you won't like me. I am way way to insecure. It has been a difficult road to get this far with T.