I have no issues telling my T and Pdoc that they're important to me, that I like them, that I care about them.

I, too, fear abandonment and rejection. But my thought process is if I don't tell people how much they mean to me, then they might perceive me as ungrateful or distant...and then I might lose them.

My T and Pdoc have asked me what I would do if I lost either one. I answered honestly. The only thing I don't say to them is that I love them. Now that word I'm afraid would be misunderstood.