Hello, teanigami. Change is a constant. Those who are resilient and adaptive seem to handle change better.

My suggestion is for you to print copies of your post for you treatment team. Perhaps, it is time to determine if your medications need to be bumped-up in summer; or, give a different medication a try. Is there a reason your pain management is not working?

You are grieving the loss of your boyfriend. A lot is happening now. Isolating is a negative. Be your own best advocate. Is therapy an option? Do not suffer in silence.