You are being way too hard on yourself. Killers don't weep for their lost children. You are crying.

We don't know the future. You could have died and then the child would be dead anyway. Or...It's a gamble at best and you're gambling with your life and your children's lives. Would you risk saving the child and risk dying? Let he who is without sin cast the first stone.

If you were in hospital once, then chances are good that there were going to be future trips and you might not have been lucky enough to survive.

Father Lindsay told me once that the decision for who goes to Heaven and who goes to Hell is left in the hands of God. He said this because I told him that I was going to Hell for my actions.

We love you here and your children need you. What more is there to say?

Well...

When your children have children, they are going to want a grandmother to spoil them rotten.

There is a thing more crippling than cerebral palsy: the prison of your own mind.