My boyfriend of 15 yrs has no respect for me trying to get sober, mostly because we were drinking buddies. I am really trying my hardest and have ended the relationship but he is always emailing and texting me and nothing ends and I have relapsed back to drinking with him several times. I am sick of it, and need to end it permanently. I did have 7 months sober, which is the longest I have ever quit for. I can do it again, but it is lonely quitting drinking. I do go to meetings but I don't have many friends at AA. I think I should probably get a sponsor, but I feel funny doing that. I feel weird.