A T suggested today that my diagnosis might be Complex PTSD. I have never heard of it but apparently Judith Herman wrote a book about it, Trauma And Recovery.

Have you heard of Complex PTSD??

I googled Complex PTSD and found...me. This is mostly how I feel.

I am distraught and grieved that the sustained child and adult abuse I have suffered was severe enough to disable me this way! Pre

Complex post-traumatic stress disorder - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

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Six clusters of symptoms have been suggested for diagnosis of C-PTSD.[3][39] These are (1) alterations in regulation of affect and impulses; (2) alterations in attention or consciousness; (3) alterations in self-perception; (4) alterations in relations with others; (5) somatization, and (6) alterations in systems of meaning[39]

Experiences in these areas may include

Difficulties regulating emotions, including symptoms such as persistent dysphoria, chronic suicidal preoccupation, self injury, explosive or extremely inhibited anger (may alternate), or compulsive or extremely inhibited sexuality (may alternate).

Variations in consciousness, including forgetting traumatic events (i.e., psychogenic amnesia), reliving experiences (either in the form of intrusive PTSD symptoms or in ruminative preoccupation), or having episodes of dissociation.

Changes in self-perception, such as a chronic and pervasive sense of helplessness, paralysis of initiative, shame, guilt, self-blame, a sense of defilement or stigma, and a -->>**sense of being completely different from other human beings.**

Varied changes in the perception of the perpetrator, such as attributing total power to the perpetrator (caution: victim's assessment of power realities may be more realistic than clinician's), becoming preoccupied with the relationship to the perpetrator, including a preoccupation with revenge
Alterations in relations with others, including isolation and withdrawal, persistent distrust, a repeated search for a rescuer, disruption in intimate relationships and repeated failures of self-protection.

Loss of, or changes in, one's system of meanings, which may include a loss of sustaining faith or a sense of hopelessness and despair.