Well misery loves company! He wants you down where he is, I am sure. I think if he really cared for you as a person he would be more supportive. All I can say is keep going to meetings and getting a sponsor is probably a good idea or at least some phone #s so when you start to feel lonely you can call someone. I understand it is hard, I had a hard time calling people also. It does help though. And you are right it is lonely but only for a while it does get better. PM me if you ever just want to talk.