...the reality of this is a backfire upon itself!

...where can I run and where can I hide?

have I had some-one in my head?...

and this is hopeless..

I hate me so how come I try to like someone else..

everything I am relies upon them liking me...

and if not?

I will rip my life into 1000 bits...

and if I am not killed yet?...

must mean that I am trying really hard...

but I know this is painfull...

give me a freaking break!...

its not my damn fault...

I can hurt more than you...

I can do this over and over...

I don't forgive....

but I have to forgive me to survive