Thursday was a so-so day. I got into a snit on our way to the store and had to get over it. It took supreme effort and standing up for myself which I did. Then tonight my emotions piled up on me: sadness, grief, anxiety, worry, fear, tension. A big deep abyss. Finally after suffering for 3-4 hours I took a valerian and it made me mellow right out. Now I even feel happy.

I struggled with my eating disorder tonight too. Sucks. Need to sleep soon.