The longer I live, the more i am convinced that i have depression. I feel sad not just because of sad thoughts anymore. I just feel sad now. For no reason. It is pathetic. Gives me nothing but a whole bunch low self esteem and low confidence issues, people scare me, I am starting to hate social gatherings and people, any criticism aimed my way is met with thoughts of how worthless i am. I feel the need to confide my deepest feelings to someone i can trust, i feel the need for an emotional.and physical shoulder to lean and cry on, i feel lonely and i am starting to realise that i am suffering from sexual addiction. I have never admitted it, because i feel like a loser with no self control. An animal. A useless, worthless, neanderthal who cant control herself and be independent by herself.

I am absolutely ashamed of myself, and i would like to disappear off the face of Earth. PC is the only place that i can find solace in, i feel safer here. I guess this is a rant...but i just cant take it in anymore. I cant accept the fact that i am not perfect. I am very depressed.