I'm 18, and still I'm high school. I obviously live with my parents! Last year, my mom had encouraged me to get a summer job. I had applied and got one at an office supply store. I got the job on my first interview. I was happy. They called to file paperwork, so I went back and they gave me my schedule. I got into my car and cried and cried. I don't quite know why. I felt I wasn't ready. I saw I had to work on my birthday, which I wasn't going to do, so I had emailed my boss before even starting a days work, and requested off, and he gave it to me. My first day... I couldn't go in. I had stayed up all night crying and worrying. I couldn't do it.. So fast forward a year.. Last week I got a job at a pizza place, I was nervous but I knew I needed to go in. I started, and the first night was horrible! I did go back a second night, and it wasn't as busy so it was better. But, I still have stayed up all night worries crying and depressed over this job. I don't really want a job, but need extra money for gas and etc. I have to work today and have almost decided that I am quitting come tomorrow. One thing is, my boyfriend works at his job 7-4, and I have to work 4-9 so I know I wouldn't be able to see him.. That makes me not want to go, but even the days I wouldn't see him, I still get sick to my stomach because of having to work. I feel like I am just over reacting about working, but I don't know what to do. I am honestly a hard worker. I get straight A's, and am I'm extracurriculars. I would consider myself a leader in school. I love school. This is why I don't know what is going on with me. I have stayed up the past 3 nights with no sleep, worrying about having to work. I want my freedom. I feel like working almost everyday is such a hassle. I only wanted around 10 hours a week, but if I told an employer that, I think they would laugh in my face. I don't know what to do or what exactly is going on with me. I also get the same anxiety when it comes to playing sports. I will plan to, let's say, become a cheerleader, and when the first practices start.. I'll bail. I want to be a psychologist when I grow older. I have goals set for myself and am really strict about achieving them. Someone please help or give me pointers. I cannot stay up and worry any longer.