Thanks. It's easier to do in the mornings if I have slept, and easier to do if I'm in a better head space. I do keep reading over and over certain threads. I replay conversations with my t, all to try to remember that maybe I'm a bit biased in my opinion of myself.
My chest still feels like it wants to cave-in this morning, but my head isn't so full of cobwebs... hoping I can take all the support from here with me to t today. I need to remember to hold on to this stuff. It's hard though. I didn't self harm much yesterday, but it was more because I felt defeated and hopeless that even that would work... :/ did reach out to t though, and she was very kind and supportive. Really gonna miss her